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The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

October 3, 2011

Happy Monday! In case you all missed them, here are some posts from this weekend!

5 Things and 5 Miles

Happy Best Month of the Year

Chipotle Cultivate Festival

So yesterday definitely contained the good, the bad, and the ugly. I feel like sometimes when I’m blogging that I try and gloss over days when I’m doing so well. I mean, who wants to write about/read about unhappy things, when I have other great things to share?

But then I thought about it, and realized that I always appreciate when other bloggers are honest about how they’re feeling, because I realize that everyone has bad days and that NO ONE is perfect. Even me!

I grew up in a bit of a “glossy” world, where you always pretended everything was great, even if it wasn’t. I tend to do this because I don’t want to dump any of my unhappiness on other people, but what I need to realize is that other people are there for support and won’t just run away because I’m not perfect all the time.

Ready. Set. Dump.

I had a bad day and I’m still not feeling great about it. I couldn’t do my 7 mile run yesterday because my knee was still bothering me and I think that sent me into a funk! I hate not being able to run! I decided to try out swimming laps at the pool, since I figured that wouldn’t put pressure on my knee. I actually really enjoyed it. However, I couldn’t find my goggles before I left (I think they got tossed when I moved from Charleston), so by the time I left the pool my eyes were completely swollen and red and my vision was blurry for hours! It hurt!

When I got back I made myself some pumpkin oats, and then was surprisingly productive for not being able to see well!

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Like my mini pumpkin? I bought it at the farmers market yesterday to bring some Fall cheer to my apartment!

Later in the day I decided to make some low-fat pumpkin cookies that I found online. They were super easy to make and had very few ingredients.

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Unfortunately, they didn’t taste very great. They were fine right in the middle, but the outsides were dry and they were a bit tasteless. I decided to toss them after eating one (I was going to take them to my brother) but of course while throwing them out I ended up picking at them and probably ate a total of 3 or 4 in the course of things… I was feeling anxious and as I’ve said before, when I’m anxious, I eat!

Does anyone else do this? In reality I didn’t eat much, but my stomach had been really bothering me yesterday and every time I ate anything I felt full really quickly and my stomach started to hurt. I think this added to my frustration.

I was also anxious because I’ve gained about a pound or two. I know this sounds like nothing (and it ISN’T) but when I can’t run for stress relief and I’m trying to add healthy fats back in and not calorie count, it makes me feel out of control and anxious! I’m trying so hard to not let it bother me, but clearly deep down it does!

I did get to go over to my brothers and see him and play with Molly for a bit. Since she likes the couch so much, but leaves a lot of hair, my brother got her a couch of her own. She LOVES it! She was so cute! My brother sent me a couple pictures the day before of her enjoying it:

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After visiting Molly, which ALWAYS makes me feel better, I headed home to attempt dinner. I’d been seeing people make savory oats a lot on blogs, so I thought I would give it a whirl. It was DELICIOUS! (another “good” of the day).

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Katie’s Savory Oats

Ingredients

1/2 cup beans

handful of mushrooms

handful of broccoli and cauliflower

handful kale

1/3 cup oats

1/8 cup apple cider vinegar

1/8 cup Bragg’s liquid Amos

I made each element separately and then combined them together. The beans I microwaved, the veggies I cooked in a skillet and then added the apple cider vinegar and Braggs when it was almost done, and the oats I cooked on the stove. I used Unsweetened Vanilla So Delicious Coconut milk for the oats (1/3 cup milk, 1/3 cup water) and I really think that added a great flavor!

So you’d think this dinner, plus some yogurt after for dessert would be enough, right? Nope. I discovered how to make my own Cinnamon Toast Crunch Cereal (added Stevia and cinnamon to plain bran flakes) and literally ate cereal until I felt sick.

We call this binge eating. And that’s why I feel so awful today. Part of me is horribly embarrassed to share this, especially since I know a lot of the people who read this blog, but I don’t want to be “glossy,” I want to be honest.

In reality I probably didn’t eat that much, maybe two servings of cereal, but I ate even though my stomach hurt! I know the advice, take a walk around the block, call someone, distract yourself, but I didn’t. We are all human, we all make mistakes, and so do I . I need to remind myself that I’m NOT PERFECT! I had a slip up! I used to do this all the time and haven’t in a while. Time to pull myself up, brush myself off, and move forward.

“Never let the sense of past failure defeat your next step.” – Oswald Chambers

 

Does anyone else feel like they need to seem perfect all the time? Or have a hard time being honest about when they have a bad day?

Also, any suggestions to improve my mood today? What do you do to make yourself feel better?

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2 Comments leave one →
  1. October 3, 2011 7:28 pm

    Congrats on switching over to WordPress!! I hope you like it over here 🙂

    I sometimes feel the need to be perfect, but it has lessened as I’ve gotten older to be honest. And with being married, neither of us is perfect, so I don’t feel pressured or anything. I usually cuddle with my honey or my puppy when I’m having a bad day!

    The puppy couch is so cute! My dog lays like that a lot and we can’t figure it out!

    • October 4, 2011 12:03 pm

      I LOVE wordpress, Thanks! I definitely think being single and living alone has made me feel an even greater need to be perfect, because the only time people see me is in social situations and I don’t want to be a debbie downer! And my brother was telling me about molly sleeping like that: apparently she likes having her head off, and then whenever she moves she keeps shifting further and further off her “couch” until she slides off, realizes what happened, and climbs back on. Toooo adorable.

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